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About Me Member Procrastinator xloganxMale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Years
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Do I deserve this?

Sat Sep 19, 2009, 3:01 PM
  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: my heart pound and mind race
  • Reading: Bills, bills, bills, more bills
  • Watching: The bills pile up.
  • Playing: ugh, i just can't
  • Eating: through money like candy
  • Drinking: far too much caffeine
I was let go from another job.
Twice in two years.
Not a good record.
I wasn't a bad employee.
I never was a trouble maker.
The first one was a massive company downsizing.
A medium size company that manufactures printing equipment.
I never felt like my skills were fully utilized.
Sometimes I felt like they didn't know what they were doing.
Over 40 people were let go that day.
Can't say that was my fault, but apparently I wasn't worth keeping.
This time, I'm not sure what they were thinking.
It was a small, but successful, print shop.
I was the only pre-press professional they had.
I ran that department, a multi-tasking fool.
Pre-press, pre-flight, sample proofing, posters, direct mail, design, imposition, CtP, post-production, you name it.
I did them all, and sometimes, I did them all at once.
I showed up late perhaps a few too many times?
But usually only by a few minutes.
Otherwise I'd call and let them know.
I am not a morning person, that's my downfall.
I wasn't the only one that had that problem, though.
I checked my personal email once in a while.
But not in a way that effected my work.
I occasionally browsed my social network and art profiles.
It is the only way I have to effectively communicate and stay in touch with the community, and family.
I am a web connected individual, it's part of life these days.
But I also used the internet for work related stuff; stock art, fonts, research, templates, etc.
I was told I was the best person they've ever had in that position.
That sounds good, but was it really saying much?
I got praise for my skills and knowledge.
I worked hard helping the production dept when required.
Sometimes their expectations were too high.
The tasks they wanted done were just not manageable in the time they expected.
I did what they told me as well as I could.
Sometimes I exceeded the expectations.
I pushed many jobs through in a timely manner.
The company was doing really well, too.
I like to think I contributed to that success.
Yet, I was underpaid by industry standards.
I was overdue for a raise.
Apparently I wasn't valuable enough.
Was it really a wise choice to do that to someone, in this economy?
How will it effect their business?
I'd trade a few minutes late for someone that was highly effective at their job.
I think I would.
Maybe I have much to learn.
I suppose it's partly my fault.
But they might have ruined my life.
I am at risk of losing my house.
My bills are stacking once again.
I almost had everything payed off and manageable.
I feel devastated.
What will I do?

Quit?
Fail?
Wither?

I refuse.
I chose to move on.

Persevere.
Learn.
Grow.
Improve.

I hope I am strong enough.

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: too far south, but close to the ocean
  • Interests: graphic arts, faux painting, pinup art, anime, dark art, pop art, grit
  • Favourite movie: Team America, The Incredibles, LOTR, Sin City, King Kong
  • Favourite band or musician: Dashboard Confessional, Augustana; I like many but don't really follow any
  • Favourite genre of music: whatever fits my mood; Metal, Goth, Electronic, Dance Mix, Club, Rock, R&B, Alternative, Country
  • Favourite artist: I am awful and don't remember them
  • Favourite poet or writer: Stephen King, Eric Kripke
  • Favourite photographer: see favorite artist
  • Favourite style of art: anime/manga, pin up, cartoon, comic
  • Operating System: Win XP, OS X
  • MP3 player of choice: WinAMP and sometimes Windows MediaPlayer
  • Shell of choice: Turtle ... ?
  • Wallpaper of choice: City of Heroes, Spider-Man, Anime, Marvel, Transformers, Art, Females
  • Favourite game: City of Heroes - City of Villains / Kingdom Hearts: I & II
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2, PC, XBOX 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Felix the Cat, Megas XLR, Jazz, Optimus Prime, Prowl, Classic Mickey, Goofy
  • Personal Quote: "Jesus Saves, and takes only half damage"
  • Tools of the Trade: computer, scanner, pen tablet, pencil, paper, ink, brush, paint, xacto knife, guaché

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:iconxloganx:
np. it's really cool, I might cut it out for Halloween. lol.
Charlie is the funniest.

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:iconminute-of-decay:
Nice! I moved here just over a year ago, I grew up in Newton
:iconxloganx:
That's cool.
I moved away after high school, and haven't been able to visit in years.

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:iconminute-of-decay:
Ahh, where'd you move to? And do you miss it here? It'd be really hard for me to move away.
On a side note, did you use to go to Maudslay state park at all?
Sorry for all the questions, haha.
:iconxloganx:
long story. I left after high school when I joined the navy, and I've moved around a lot since. I lived in Beverly for a while during college, after leaving the military. well, I'm currently living in Alabama.

I do miss it some, mostly because it's familiar and where my family is. I miss them terribly.
I know my mom used to take us to Maudslay when we were kids, but I can't recall the last time I was there.

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:iconminute-of-decay:
That's quite a bit of moving around, I hope you get to come up and visit them soon.
It's the opposite with me. I want to stay around this area but my parents are moving to Florida, and I don't want to go there.
:iconvallesan:
THX for the fav and comment.. :)

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:iconcrevist:
Thanks for the fav :ahoy:

hopefully it will help you out in some way

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Thanks for the watch :+devwatch:

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:iconnaqvi512:
hi, buddy, how are you, hope you fine, can you help me to making a logo.

Graphics5

I am very thankful to you,

Regards,,

Shuja Naqvi

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